This thought crossed my mind yesterday after asking my friend Danielle to send some pictures from our recent events my way.
I've been talking a lot about how I didn't meet my goals of looking a certain way for the wedding and how I'm trying to be ok with it but looking at those pics I realized that maybe a change in perspective is all that I need.
Scrolling though and seeing myself with my friends I felt really really proud of how I looked and not at all critical. For the first time in a very long time, I didn't look at myself and immediately see flaws because I couldn't get past the pure happiness radiating from those photos! I look just how I've been wanting to look for so long, and I didn't even know it!
For a too long now I've been shying away from group gatherings, I haven't been looking people in the eye for fear of them seeing my broken out face, and living in a fog where I really don't even see myself (as mentioned in this post). Gradually this has been stopping, and for some reason looking at these pictures really cemented in my mind that I don't want to go back there.
My change in perspective lies in understanding what I need, not what I think I need. Pushing workouts on myself when I'm not feeling it does not result in results, it results in feeling like a failure. Doing what I love in that moment, whether it be weights, hikes, bike rides, a simple walk... now that is what makes me feel like a success story and obviously shines through in my demeanor. It's not something I plan on forgetting :)
9 days to go until wedding day, and tomorrow Cody is home which will make everything even more fun!
XO - Michelle
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